Today in the News

I bet Brian Williams is really happy to be a news anchor during Armageddon. I mean, seriously - what a primo job to have while the world goes to shit. He's probably all full of humility when he runs into someone who stops to tell him how they lost their job and their house and the stress gave them a heart attack and now they can't find work at 55 so they're living in their son's basement, but what makes them feel better is his big face telling him that the whole world is going to hell with him. Brian probably says, "Aw shucks, you're just saying that."

TV Withdrawal - Recalled Dream #1

I've cut down my TV viewing significantly. I used to watch TV all the time. Or it watched me - as I used it as background noise or a general diversion to the world outside my door. I decided I would only watch the programs I recorded or morning and evening news - 30 minutes - just to get the fear messages of the day.

What I've found is that the more time I don't watch TV, the less I want to watch my "favorite" shows that I record. I keep finding reasons not to sit down and watch. And I really resist it when I start to think about time. I can easily slide into the moment and just ride but when I watch TV, I obsessively watch the clock on the cable box. It feels hypnotic and not in a good way. Speaking of hypnotic, have you ever noticed how hynptic the On Demand channel is? Sometimes I would just search and search the movie database because there was something so soothing with the music and the guy making the announcements. I know they were pumping something through that channel. You could wake up with drool running down your chin 40 minutes later because you tranced out searching for softcore porn.

Recently, I've been a little disconcerted, disoriented. I don't mean I'm not walking straight, but I feel like I don't have any marching orders. It's becoming obvious to me how much of daily conversation with people revoled around what was going on in the news or what happened on your favorite reality show. As the hours stretch longer that I go without watching TV, I find myself unable to relax and watch what used to be my favorite shows and movies. The occult nature within entertainment - all forms - is so painfully obvious that I'm unable to enjoy them the way I used to. So many have begun to show us how symbolism is used to deceive and manipulate us and once you go there you can't turn back.

Dream:

I dreamt that my boyfriend was someone famous. Whatever he did, he traveled the world and I traveled with him often. He seemed to do something in regions because we spoke in terms of "when I'm in the Northern region" or "I'll meet you in the Southeast region."

On one of his trips to the "Northeast region", I couldn't make it. Something came up that made me have to miss the trip. I found out that in my absence - and, in fact, he said because of my absence - he had sex with Rhianna. I yelled, "You had sex with that skanky, demon possessed whore!"

I woke up wondering how I could date someone who was so insecure and stupid.